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"Anticipation
an·tic·i·pa·tion /ænˌtɪsəˈpeɪʃən/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[an-tis-uh-pey-shuhn]
–noun
1)An act of waiting to knock off, get accessed to the phone to be able to talk to her."

Anticipation not replied.

I held on to my phone throughout the bus ride, starring out of the window, pretending not to be anxious over anything.

I held on to my phone throughout the bus ride.

Seems like I can just work till I'm left with bones.

I am not expecting, probably hoping. Working towards what I hope for. It is like chasing the end of the rainbow for the pot of gold. Naively optimistic, probably nobody persevered long enough to really find the pot of gold, and this time I am giving it a shot and run further than anyone else.

I spent more than half my day thinking about nonsensical stuff. Considering a whole lot of stuff when from the start, it is not even required. My role is too small to even draw out the concepts, what more planning how to execute and balance.

Daydreaming.

I always feel bad for only being to do so little for her, play such a small role. But it is just an ego thing for who am I to play a bigger role and to perform anything beyond where I stand? But still, at the end of the day, my heart will do the thinking, not my brains.