Balance

I used to say," I am single right now, so before I get a girlfriend, meanwhile just earn as much as possible before reaching the need to balance between financial and love."

But little did I know that I don't exactly need a girlfriend before arriving to this point. All it takes is to love someone. And yes, I did.

At the end of the day, I walked out of my company, asking if she still needed me.

No reply.

I am undesirable, unwanted, under performing in many aspects. To her, I am a ," if you are around, okay, if you are not, okay too"

This thing has been one sided all these while. She has never loved me from the start. Thought that she did,yes. Probably while thinking back, she might feel silly that she was thinking that way back then. But don't worry, she isn't alone. I thought she felt the same way too, as well.

It has nothing to do if she is worthy of having me to feel for her, or whether she feels worthy of my feelings because at the end of it, I can't explain why do I feel this way towards her.

Taking the theory that the Earth is round, yes, she is within reach.

She won't understand my point, and neither can I , because we feel differently towards each other and all I can pray for is that one day our hearts synchronize.

3rd day in a row feeling this way. Other than random stuff which cheered me up a little, overall it has been mulling over things which probably are too big for me to even take the initiative to spare a thought for.

I am worth, but not irreplaceable, that is if I own a place in her significant enough to be mentioned.

Don't tell me things like," when you make fun and mock at somebody , try being in their shoes and be considerate." Well, I am in their shoes, or more like, my shoes. I have nothing to be proud of. Nobody is proud of me for anything.

And to all losers, HAHA to you. Hope you enjoy my company.