Nommiey, come back in 1 piece please.

Okay, when two people hang out together, do things together, talk to each other, spend time with each other, they end up either getting closer or drift apart due to differences. But what does it take for two different people to come closer because of the differences they share?

Well, I believe she and I have orchestrated a series of events to make known that we do feel comfortable with each other. But, are we on the same comfort level?

I used to be very cautious with her. Resisting to temptations. Having internal battles. Self-reflected push and pull factors without consideration of asking how she will feel and shit like that. See, she felt that it was an ego thing. "Nice guy" was just a name for me to cover up my attempt to play "hard to get + I want us to reach perfection with one another". But then again, it wasn't entirely true. I did want to be Mr. Nice but couldn't pull off the finishing move.

See, I've known her for awhile. She was once with me. And right now, we are so close yet so far. We do share a little bit of physical intimacy. Discreet, mild yet nostalgic. Different thoughts lingers. After that, she will say something with a hidden code embedded. It says, " No big deal. Far from what we had."

I always try to seek a theoretically correct answer to topics which are so debatable. And because the debate from both sides within myself is so controlled by my own abilities, I end up feeling fucked up. And now, I am playing this little game with myself again due to the lack of courage to ask her about us and hopefully bringing us down to a common ground.

Some things are meant to be different. But doesn't mean that they are unique mean they stay for good.

When it comes to times of desperation, anything which falls within the same tone works. Even if they weren't true, it just adds to the whole Hollywood effect. You just wanted someone to stay. Its an ownership you are seeking for.

All the best to her.

And meanwhile, lets just hope we settle our differences without spoiling the goods that it has brought upon us.