Superficial

When I receive something sweet, maybe a comment, an act or whatever, I don't know how to respond. I do appreciate the gesture, but other than appreciating , what is the secondary reaction? Will it be fair if i just regard that sweet gesture as " ah, just something I can simply describe with a verb without any descriptive adjectives"

Sweetness is just sweetness. Doesn't say much.

I am okay with hugging to bid goodbye or to say hi but because of the society I am living in right now where people don't usually practice such habits, a hug becomes sensitive. Its like when a girl hug me suddenly thoughts like, " Okay, but why? " will run through my mind. And will asking to confirm stuff be rude?

Sometimes questions are not meant to be answered. I hate to be questioned when it involves something personal, yet there are no right or wrong question. Its too open ended. And because of that free for all nature, you answer , instead of being right or wrong will be classified "good or bad" answers.

Something fucked up happened to Meli yesterday. She was drunk when I saw her. Every time I look at her, I can't forget the time she left me for another asshole who ditched her probably 50 times in two years. And the funny thing is, Meli knows that I will be there for her when she needs me, but she just didn't believe that back then, she can rely on me. Odd fuck right? Is it she or me? I wasn't nice to her yesterday. I just told her whatever harsh shit my friend told me last time.

And Sam, I don't know what is opening up her wound again. Girls love to fall for bad guys then they will cry over them. And when friends say " he isn't worth your tears," they don't fucking get it. They admit " he is a bad guy " then why the fuck shed your tears for a jerk like him?

So to both of my ex-girlfriends. Be practical and do what you need to do. Don't even include any emotions to your own resolve. If chopping off one fucking finger can make you forget and get over that ass, do it and make sure it works. Don't even considering if they still have feelings for you or if within the next 30 years they will regret and turn back.

Fuck it. You are too attractive to think of all these shit which will add to your wrinkles to replace your hair loss. You two are no longer together, that is a reason good enough to break the chain which ONCE held the both of you together.

WALK!