2 seconds, 2 fakes, 1 hoop.

Its so fucked up when you get injured in a 5-5 match and the first thing on your mind was, " Fuck, Wednesday he is on leave, I have to work"

I'm feeling kinda down. I don't know if I am committing myself to different tasks because I want,need or obliged to perform. I don't really like the lifestyle I am leading now.

I don't quite know if people expect things out of me. But I know that if I don't perform, in some way or the other, they will feel a tad disappointed. I don't know where am I heading to right now. I am so not motivated

I just balled with Don and crew. My fluctuating performance just screwed up game after game. I didn't win any of the 5 full court matches though I scored more than half of the total score. One moment I did a base line shot over their center, did two 360 shots with 2 defenders marking me, faked a defender twice in two seconds and registered one more hoop to my score list. Then the next moment, I can't even do a reverse layup. Fuck. I was so distracted. I don't even know what was running through my head other than " ARGHHH "

Disappointment after disappointment.


*Sigh*

I wish I can still hug her and whine like a loser and she will tell me that things will be alright. True or not, I don't know, but at least the feeling was good.


And she showed me something she did to her desktop with MSN plus




I am touched. Thank you.